And schools out early and soon we'll be learning, and the lesson today is how to die

I've felt really sick lately, despite the fact that I am on antibiotics, painkillers, nasal spray and asthma inhalators. Last nite I was overdosing with Bricanyl (which is opener medication for bronchuses). And overdosing lead to the state of shaking and too fast heart beat. I was scared and my lungs didn't work either then.

I decided to sleep no matter what, so I slipped into a dreams where I was travelling around. I was in the ferry to Tallinn and back with my family (whole family, mum and dad at same place (!) but I was sad, because they said to me, that I need to left all the others and take a tram to home from port. I didn't, I travelled in secret with them to some service station and left out there. It was some 20 kilometers from Tampere - and I need to walk from there to Tampere. I walked by some camp site where I met some OLD schoolmates: Antti and Asta L., Matti S., Riikka was there and Emmi, who lives now-a-days in UK (all of them are from Varkaus). I had a small conversations about my life with them and continued last 5km to Tampere.

I couldn't remember where my great-aunt lives there and I couldn't find my friends home's. I met Winston (a boy with grey jacket) and a girl with pink jacket. They were looking for each other. I helped them and get to problems by myself. I didn't have place to sleep, but I found my post box where I found out some letters which I've been waiting. All the letters had either my Helsinki address, or then some weird Latvian address: Seeru iela 8. Seru (with long e) means funeral in Latvian. I kept looking for a place to sleep, but again I came to post box and there was one big paper where was written in Finnish: I'm looking for you - Winston. I fall a sleep on the grass next to stream (it was Tammerkoski, I'm pretty sure of it). And didn't woke up anymore.

I suddenly woke up in real life. Time was 13:29. I had been sleeping more than 13 hours. I still had pain in lungs. I still had running nose. I still felt bad. I still feel. (Time to get scared, time to make plans).

Aura and Kaisa was visiting me. That's the reason I haven't been writing. With Aura we drank Mojitos and with Kaisa we went to OPERA and Akvaparks. Kaisa told me that I breath like sighing while sleeping. I am worried about me. Is anyone else?

Right now there is NATO summit in the city. I don't like their restrictions (not walking in old town areas, no cars on our areas streets), but I am not sure whether any kind of Unions are good for people. EU has made me to study here, but.. I've done it also without EU-money (so. Erasmus-grant). I will probably get my residence permit on 6th of December, which is independence day. I will celebrate already 5th of Dec, with Iggy Pop and the Stoogees in Riga Arena. (Ohh damn, I've waited for some good concerts again). This weekend I will join a summer-party to Depo. Hospitalu Iela will be performing there. And Depo is always a warm place to go. I saw Science of Sleeping and I am definately sure, that Sleeping mode is the best one you can have. I'm planning to see Babel. I should pay rent this week. I should go to doctor. I should rest more.