a moth

i did something bad.

I found out that in my window, there is a moth, i tried to show it a way back to fresh nite air, but it get panicked and fly straight to my night lamp. Lamp burned it alive. I saw the smoke or some kind of steam which get out from the moth. Now there is a dead body on my scarf, a bit burned, not smelly though, but a cadaver.

I didnt wanted to end this like that. I think there has to be somekind of problem with me. I cannot form right way to express, to be myself.

I havent been drinking, so dont say I am drunk now, thinking dark thoughts. But in fact, I just try to prove myself, that I couldnt change.